JUST JILL

Sometimes he falls asleep on the sofa while watching TV. I run upstairs and try to fall asleep before he gets into bed. Most nights I lie in bed listening to him snore away while the irritation and anger builds up within me.

I don’t want to be judged if I do decide to do something, whether it’s botox, filler, surgery or something non invasive. I wish that I didn’t care so much about what others will think but I do. Why did I have to be anonymous?

I feel like I have acquired a new talent as I age. I can laugh, cough, sneeze and pee all at the same time. Definitely not the multitasking skill I wanted to add to my list of accomplishments!

All I can think of is will she be younger? Will she be prettier? Will she be funnier? Will my family and friends like her more than me? And when I do meet her will I be able to string a sentence together?

My gynecologist has told me that natural changes after menopause cause changes in pH that lead to odor. That’s all well and good but honestly I have gone from smelling like a bed of roses to a sweaty hockey bag!

I’m so mad at her. Truth be told, this goes beyond mad. She’s driving me crazy. Stubborn is an understatement. I’m terrified something awful is going to happen to her.

I have zero interest in sex. Don’t get me wrong, I love my husband. I just have zero desire to be intimate with him. It’s nothing personal, I have zero desire to be intimate with anyone.

She kept to herself as she went through the diagnosis stage. I am vague on the details. My mind froze as she was telling me. At the same time I didn't fully understand and didn't want to press for too much information.

I’m overreacting to things that never used to faze me. I never know what will set me off. Just the other day I lost it on my spouse for breathing too loudly while we were making dinner. 

My husband is hairy … very hairy! I used to be okay with it but lately it’s started bothering me … not enough for me to say something to him. How could I after 25 years of marriage?

The pain gets so bad sometimes I think to myself, is this how my life will end - sitting on a toilet? The burning and the itching are intolerable. Even sitting can be a chore, the discomfort is next level!